I don't want to know 失去你有多痛

tt's e current song..4 jx's sis, jingyi's info..the singer's name is chen wei..haha :p

anyway, i guess e song kinda relates to what i want 2 write abt..j's dad passed away..2 say e least, i'm shocked, still not sure what happened actually..yah cos like suddenly..er, actually, i dunno how 2 respond, yah, i think i'm qt bad with such things cos due to lack of experience..not tt i want 2 hv lotsa experience either..

it's funny sometimes..cos i was like thinking of j last night and this morn..cos it was soci paper lah..hoping might meet him on e bus or smtg..then he can prep me up..and thinking tt it's his last sem already..still haven got my lunch treat from him or played badminton with him in sch :p oh well..one sem just flew by like tt..and reminding myself not 2 4get his birthday this yr..

wanted to go 4 e wake, but dun think i'll can make it, was planning 2 go tmw after ss but...j says e cremation's tmw afternoon and i gotta mug 2night..he was like so nice, just kept telling 2 study..making me feel guilty, esp since tt day, he just suddenly asked if i was in e lib..think i just replied with a curt 'no', cos think i wasnt in a gd mood..yeah, i shd really try 2 control words sometimes?

hope he'll be fine yah..broken leg, sick and birthday coming..take care, j..

though i m qt sure he doesnt know abt this blog..but then again, i'm will not be surprised cos seems tt there are silent blog readers out there :p u know who you are..