i realise something very contradictory about myself..it's about distance. sometimes i try my best to narrow the distance between myself and someone, cos i think that we can be better friends...yet, just when we're getting closer, i feel this great need for space of my own..widening the space around me, becoming detached..i guess i don't fear loneliness as much as i crave independence..although loneliness is not on the top of my favourite list..getting emotionally attached is an overwhelming experience but can be tiring..it takes time to settle and calm down..