this is disgusting, blogger just happily closed on me..so i gotta rewrite everything 2 e best of my memory...

ok, i take back my words...not all guys are non-fuss..only 2 guys i bought/sold books 2, from a certain fac in a certain uni..specific enough? happy?

yup, it's been a long long day, so so tired..running abt sch and doing "sai kang"..it's been yet another stupid day...cos my dear little bro conveniently forgot 2 wake me up to go sch with him, though i'd reminded him several times yesterday night..was terribly late for lec..in e end, took a cab down with my older bro, for e record he went off 1st and i had 2 pay..then guess what? i din dare 2 go into lec cos i was so late..e lt was so small and filled with ppl, plus e fact tt i dun think e lecturer was one 2b trifled with..what a nice start 2 e mod! i hung ard central lib, checking out e books..then went exploring ard engine fac..it cld have been other ppl's fault, but i believe it's fundamentally attributed 2 my own silliness...waiting at e wrong places for e wrong ppl..

spent e rest of e day doing "sai kang" with jason, it's yv afterglow tmw!! :) e finale of yv each yr tt ppl always look 4ward 2..for me, it's been an especially meaningful yr, next 2 my participant and tf yrs, which means tt leaves only 2002..in retrospect, i feel tt there r a lot of things which happened tt i wasnt aware of, which perhaps exp why i felt qt alienated..things which i'm only beginning 2 fully comprehend now..better late than nv, i guess? i believe everything happens for a reason..all i knew in 2002 was tt i hated e politicking and felt so jaded..so i din really want 2 do yv in 03.. i m glad i realised tt w/o yv, there seemed 2b something lacking in my life..there must have been a reason why i was part of yv'04..perhaps, it was 2 do more now tt there r more opportunities? guess i'll b trying 2 make a bigger committment 2 volunteering this yr? but then i'm so lazy..my fav activity is slacking at home..*haha..at least till my mum gets irritated with me..some ppl think i'm nuts, having been to 4yvs in 5 yrs.. but i dun regret the time spent..i've seen a part of life tt i nv wld have experienced in this very sheltered and privileged life i lead..it's a constant reminder tt i shd not take what i have for granted..sometimes i wonder, what wld i be 2day, what kind of person wld i b, if i hadn't been in yv?

i've known fatboychan for 4 yrs now..sometimes, i feel tt i dun really understand what's he's talking abt..as in just confusing me..2day, i felt tt there was a connection..just smtg i thot was really interesting.."assuming nothing"..how difficult is tt to do, most ppl wld ask? but guess what? sometimes we dun even know what assumptions we've made..often times, we set limits for ourselves tt dun even need 2b there in e 1st place..

spent e entire afternoon hiding in e red bus, writing certs and digging ard for e time capsule! feeling so paranoid tt i might have missed it, i checked each box at least 3, 4 times, even made fatboy check everything i took out!! till i was statisfied beyond reasonable doubt tt e time capsule was not somewhere in e bus..really hate 2 disappoint e yv ppl..just have this fear, what if travis goes back and finds it? i really dunno what i'll do..perhaps e time capsule is bidding it's time and thinking tt is shd not b revealed yet..

was so tired..really din feel like going 4 e class outing..but glad i went :) highest turnout rate for a long long time!! yup, haven seen so many ppl for such a long time..our class' turned into a bevy of beauties.. oh and jun thinks we might b able 2 go her hse or somewhere for another gathering at e end of e month, b4 she goes overseas :)