it's almost 3 and i'm still try 2 settle all the mods stuff, there goes my promise 2 sleep early 2night..but better settle 2night and go 2 bed with a peace of mind...why do all the mods i'm interested in clash like nobody's business? and there's also the exams clashing..i'm really want to take some mods with my friends, but it's not turning out the way i want..and i'm torn between taking what i really want, at odd times, prob alone or taking something i dun really want but suits my time-table...uni has just succeeded in making me feel lonely...is it peer pressure? i thot we were supposed 2b more resilient to peer pressure as we grow older? but no..i used 2b able to do things on my own, even enjoy it..now i still do but in sch, it's like..perhaps it's just tt there's no one there 2 share what's going on with me? i dunno, the need to find some real friends is there, yet i still resist attempts to give into the pressure...whatever..

had qt an enjoyable day 2day...online talking rubbish(?) to someone i hardly know.. sometimes, it just makes things so much simpler talking to someone u dun really know? oh yes, tried to play a prank tt backfired...*haha, haven done such naughty and stupid things in a long time..reminds me of all the evil plans i used to have in sec sch..they werent really evil, just crazy ideas? like my cooking baking corporation, operation F and fish-food packaging company...*haha.. nvm, got reminded of my bike and the gd times i had on it..as well as the life i had a year ago..it's amazing how much can change a yr..cant wait to ride in the wind, with the breeze through my hair and the cold gripping my hands, riding into the unknown..*hah, sounds so drama..but i really love and miss the feeling..losing my bike has indeed greatly lessened the amt of exercise i do and the times i see wx!! better get a bike soon..yup..going 2 see wx tmw, at her sch! *haha and collect my xmas gifts! :) the thot fills me with glee..

it's almost 4...and thot of a perfect solution 2 my prob..just tt the end is perfect, the process may not be...we'll see how it goes....